Postscripts from the Other Side
Oh, my, what a lifetime this last one was! I still am amazed at how
many men/husbands I seemed to have around me during my life on
earth. The truth is that my number 1 lesson on earth was to learn to
love. With all those marriages and men, you would think I had
learned that many times over. And, wow, what a lot of them there
were to love!
One of my shortcomings was I never fully realized my amazing gifts
that God had given me. I was a beautiful woman, with a strong
business sense and yet I always felt that I needed someone else to
stand beside me and love me if I was ever going to be a “somebody”.
So I always felt I needed a loving and adoring husband to take care
of me, make me happy, buy me diamonds, take me places and load me up
with more, more and more “stuff”.
The truth is, all I needed to do was turn that spot light on me and
see how truly amazing I was during my life. I had a good heart, I
helped others, I did my job well in the movies, and I raised amazing
children. I campaigned for AIDS research and showed the world that
there was no reason to fear a person with this disease.
Some of the things I said and did took some guts but I’m so happy I
said them now. My famous phrase “I will never…ever…..EVER……GET
MARRIED AGAIN!”. A lot of people thought I said that because I was
disgusted with men. The real reason I said it was, I finally
discovered that I don’t need anyone in my life to feel better about
myself or who I am! This learning self-love for me was a great
opening and awareness. Even though the last few year of my life were
physically challenging, I found great happiness and contentment in
being with just me.
My message to each of you is…don’t spend an entire lifetime trying
to decipher what your real learning is all about. Be more open,
honest and conscious of what is happening within you and around you.
Don’t spend so much time wondering how you can get whatever you
would like from others. More importantly, figure out how you can get
what you want for yourself, by yourself. You’ll be amazed at how
truly capable you honestly are.
Love to all of you,
p.s. One of the best parts of finally going home, is seeing Michael
Jackson again! He looks a lot better than I do! And, of course, he
sends his love to each of you as well.